Thank you mom for the good times, Thank you Nikki for you thoughts and time well spent, Sophia and Lajla thank you for sharing your mother and your jump into the air! Savannah,...Oh I thank you for saving me. Carmel, I will see you again soon, we are not finished yet.
A self destruct policy at best.
Strange world we live in where people live for the now instaed of the long term. Make a difference in one person's life and live forever.
One year ago today my sequel wife left for Washington D.C. so she said but really she left long before Valentines Day. Am I bitter? Sure maybe. You might be also if you lost everything you knew that made you who you were, everything you loved, everything that felt like the goodness in the world that is full of people like my starter. Hungry for distruction, selfish, disrespectful and full of wrath and anger. Happy Valentines Day Brendon. Enjoy the changes and the evolution of your soul. Feel sympathetic for those who do not? I will try. Feel compasion for those who can not? I will try. Some days are tougher than others but soon, it will change, soon I will change, not with money as others have tried, but internally. Starting with humility I will say goodbye to the things I am good at.
And my response:
Why would any person want another person in a position where they have nothing left to loose? Isn't that dangerous? If you feel like all is lost, with nothing left to loose, and another person did it to you, then you may have only hatred, anger and plenty of free time. One might think that they could do anything with that freedom!
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I love my french friends who stayed with me. Thank you Pierre Tricoire and Stéphanie Gouret.
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3-5-10
cafemediterranean.netSo it's March and as you can tell St. Patty's day is coming! What will you do for St. Patty's Day? Send me an email and let me know. mrbrendons@yahoo.com
I have returned from the coast with Savannah and the trip was good. We took the dogs and played in the waves. Bella wasn't much into it but Zeus was loving it. We also ate at the Cafe Mediterranean and the food was great. People of Coos Bay have no idea what they miss everytime the drive thru McDonalds. Napoleon would say "Idiots". The prices were good the food was good and the staff did an excellent job!
We also went to comedy night at the Mill Casino and it was ok. Not great at all but ok. The first guy (no names) sucked. Bad. Second guy had talent, more musically than comedy but he did well. Next road trip should be Texas! One word,...Schlitterbahn!
Still waiting to hear how Yeni's court battle is going to turn out. She has been waiting 3 years for either product or money returned from Creations on Wheels. They came out with video cameras rolling when we tried to pick up a "new" canopy that had never been used but then pointed out the damage to the canopy and they said nothing. They lie and sell inferior product! DO NOT DO BUSINESS WITH THEM!
2-28-10
Madyson, it was fun!
Oh Nikki how I love our talks that never really are chit chats.
Update: just sprayed myself in the eye with Tough Actin'® Tinactin®!
2-25-10
So where do I begin? It's been ten days but feels like a month. Well my trip to Carmel was great! On the way down the bus handled like a dream. Cruising 75 mph the entire way! Hills were no problem really. On the way home however, that couldn't be any crazier. So I smashed into a car on I80 and destroyed her tail light, bumper, fender and entire corner panel of her brand new Ford Exploder! She said she hardly noticed that I hit her, but that's what new cars are designed to do. My bus suffered a scar with her solid metal exterior but gave me a swift headache for a few hours. Ouch. Then 3 1/2 hours outside of Medford the bus broke down. Her belt broke and she came to rest on "Road 27" at 10 o'clock at night. Thank God for Savannah! Shanna would have come too but I opted not to disrupt her family. Savannah made it there in record time and I was at home and in bed by 5 am. Thank you Savannah for everything.
Get this. I wake before work and rent a car dolly then go to work with the dolly attached to the Rodeo, leave Medford at 9 pm after working all day with only a few hours of sleep, arrive at "Road 27" around 12:30 am. and realize I have no real safe way to load the bus onto the car dolly! Shit! So I park the Rodeo and the dolly about 200 ft away and start pushing. Remember its pitch black out and if you have never been to the exit "Road 27" then you can't really grasp the oddity and queerness of the entire event. No gas stations, traffic, or even street lights! So envision me running along side of my bus, in dress slacks and dress shoes from work, slight drizzle making everything slick and difficult, pushing and running and pushing and running gaining enough speed to push the bus fast enough to launch it up these short and high angled ramps to hopefully jump into the bus at the last second. I am terrified I will slip, fall and send my bus ghost riding off the ramp and into the back of my Rodeo smashing both cars on the side of the road, in the middle of the night! My dexterity and athleticism pays off and like a well planned (which it was NOT) choreographed event, I make a little hop into the drivers seat at just the last second and ride this huge box of metal hurling into the air right up the ramp and into position! Almost! Damn! So close. As this is a onetime shot, due in part to the slight downhill but mostly because I have nothing left to push, the bus falls short of the wheel well on the dolly designed to keep it safe in transport. Now what? The weight of the bus is too great to adjust it. So I decide to wratch it down anyway and drive in figure 8's in the dark on "Road 27" a few times to see if it will right it's self. It did! I proudly stand back after all final checks are in place and study my ingenuity and clever risk taking behavior, pee where I stand, and whistle and yell as if I have just achieved the near impossible in the dark with out tools! Go me.
Then I get to Medford at 8 am and the slow realization in front of the closed mechanics shop begins to stir and sting a bit. You see I now have to get the bus OFF the dolly and I have a deadline. The dolly is due back in 1 hr. my mechanic takes Sunday off and the bus is stuck on the dolly. I won't go into all the details of the creative ways I tried to safely remove the bus from the dolly and instead I will just skip ahead to the most dangerous part yet.
I untied, loosen and all but freed the bus from her crutches, then slowly in reverse backed everything up for about 20 ft. or so and SLAMMED THE BREAKS! That's right. The bus flew from her snare and ran down the street with her new found freedom. Reckless abandon was wonderful. It was beautiful to watch. Before she jumped she looked surprised and I could tell. Everything on her dashboard jumped for joy all at once! Everything was slightly air borne for an instant. She was surprised. Then she blazed down the street at nearly 5 mph. She was so elated that she didn't care where she was going; she was just going, freely! Directly in her path was a large store front window that would offer almost no resistance. When this all happens in a matter of seconds, you begin to realize her freedom is going to cost you. In one single fluid motion, yours truly, negotiated brakes of the towing vehicle, power locks and exit, and begin a terrifying neck breaking sprint with wind in the hair and a dress shoe, yes one, left behind in an effort to reel in the new freedom my bus had found. Swiftly she challenged me but I was able to overtake her and calm her down. She came to rest just 3 - 4 ft. in front of the giant floor to ceiling window that had the bus made it thru the window, would have surely made sounds slightly resembling applause expressed by the windows freedom from that daily position against wind and rain. Fortunate for me there will be no applause or crashing of windows that Sunday. The bus is safely calm, the window intact, the dolly returned by the deadline and I return to work for a Sunday shift that with out the hair raising adventure, would have blend into the day before because there was no sleep for the entire time.
So if you called Sunday night, that's why you got my voice mail.
2-15-10
What an unbelievable Valentines Day. One year ago my then wife (a.k.a. sequel wife) didn't even know it was Valentines Day and fled to Washington D.C. instead of coming clean and talking it out. Maybe she was already sleeping with him but I did love her then. Now, I am learning to forget her and Savannah has been a big help. Savannah, Lunch was great, the mall was even better! Those are great jeans and you look very nice in them. The furniture store was fun and Chuck will never be the same. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Sleep well sweetie.
2-14-10
When will she grow up? My starter wife is playing games again with our children like she did so many years ago. She is permitting our 16 yr. old daughter to sleep overnight with an 18 yr. old man just to try to make me mad. My how she will never get it.
I have always known she is always out for herself and shows how little she cares about our girls.
Build a bridge and get over it. She owes me 6 grand but I would rather let it go so I can avoid dealing with her virus.
She thinks she has gotten away with it but truly, she has never learned her lesson. Still smoking, drinking and sleeping around at her age is not flattering for anyone. Filed bankruptcy twice and lost everything because of careless living, she is durably shallow and spiritually starved.
They say change is good.
2-12-10
Today I go to court for Yeni and she will win!
2-11-10
Today is rough. This morning I woke at 4:30 and felt heavy. I am very lonely and sad today. I miss my daughters so much. I miss the idea of being married. I don't miss either wife at all but I am confused why I believe there would ever be a loyal woman. All of them I have met in my 39 years have all lied to their friends, or to me. My starter even lied about the price of her wedding dress, to her father! My sequel lied to my children about her level of commitment. I have some how been taught that there would be real people who could be honest and that I needed to find that kind of woman. Thus far none of anything has gone as planned. I had children before I was married, married two women who couldn't stay loyal, had children I can not raise, live in a place on the planet I am neither good for nor is good for me, I have an on going struggle with alcohol and porn, and a out of date education in an industry that is no longer of interest to me. I am in a very tough place today. Life can not be all up's. I thank you Lord for these challenges.
2-9-10
Oh life is strange. With the country's economy collapsing around us, Americans will be the last to know. The world is aware while we still sleep, fattened by our protectors and ready for slaughter. These seem to be uncertain times but reality is very certain. America, the United States of America has come to an end. Not by terrorism, but by the leaders we elected who have raped her and taken that which made her strong. The sheople will be confused running this way and that way, some have fled America already to places like Asia and Japan. I will stay with my children and lay down my life for them when the time is right. I thank God that I am debt free and have no way for them to hold me. I am a survivalist and will be content living such but will miss the things I am borrowing now. I will adapt and evolve when the time is right but love my girls always.
Something like this.
2-8-10
See you soon, remember this. Seems like ages ago.
2-3-10
Wish me luck 4th attempt for lending with only one job. I'm sure it's no but one can hope. Mikayla sent mail! I love that kid. Way to go Mikayla.
Crystal-Thanks.
2-1-10
New developments,...
Few weeks ago I suffered a knee injury thought to be temporary that has yet to feel good since.
This will cancel my LA Marathon attempt. Bummer. I will try again when it feels better. My daughter has moved back to her moms because she didn't like my rules. She loves a boy who threatened her father, must be a bit of a pickle for her. I’m about to also loose the place where I live too. The sequel wife isn't satisfied until I am completely destroyed. Saw the AVITAR movie with my youngest (who still loves me currently) and we both just loved that film. Oh so I see the X doing her bar sweep routine with her co-workers last Sat. and I got a glance at who she really is in a matter of seconds. I never realized it until now but she is a follower. She will do what ever someone else tells her. I remembered early in my relationship with her, she sent off to stuff envelopes from one of those scammer ads. She did this on her own w/o any outside influence. She was bummed when she realized she had been ripped off. We had a friend named Jessie while we were married and Jennie used to mimic her all the time. She said she despised her for divorcing her husband over little more than a lack of interest. She felt the same way about her sister's divorce, her friend Amy's break-up and often talked about similar failures. Then she ultimately followed the same path. She will always mimic that which she adores and for Jennie that will always be someone or something else. If only she could see the Jennie we used to see. My daughter Madyson who still loved Jennie very much was with me last Saturday night and wanted Jennie to see her. She wanted Jennie to wave to her. She was sad when Jennie just turned her back. We all know she is a grown woman but neither of us expected her to act so childish. New rule: Never date a woman with out children. They can not understand the level of commitment needed to rise above your own garbage in order to show love for the children in your heart.
The solar air heater is coming along well. I have discovered this handy can opener that opens the can's sideways and softens the edges. I am at about 40 cans and still need some 120 more cans. It should be ready by March I hope. By then the weather will have changed and it may not be needed. Such as life.
Work is good. Ben and Tiffany have returned. I love those guys so much. Tiffany’s haircut looks great! Ben congrats on the new job! I will stop by soon.
Mom, glad you survived. Scary place but you have a mountain top strong hold that will be there when the sun shines again. Gardens will grow again, breeze will return to gentle and the waves from below will be heard again. I love you Mom.
Crystal, come if you like. Things are in the air right now and shift may take place soon. The sequel has sent me hate mail from a lawyer so I am not sure what she is trying to do but I may be forced to move soon. If you want to wait awhile I will know more in a few months. Love you.
Dad, sorry I won't be there for March. Love you too.
1-19-10 
In just a few days things have changed several times. Mikayla has run away and claims she was kicked out. She spent the night at her boyfriend’s house. Huge No No and what kind of parent allows this? What kind of family are they really? Wait till you hear this nugget. Her boyfriend threatens to kick my ass! Bring it on Austin. Your 18 on the 25! Free game sport. Then Mikayla is moving to her mothers. This time for sure she says. I finally agree. That's best Mikayla. Mikayla if you can’t live in my house under my rules, then it's time to go. We both agree she's moving on her own free will and NOT getting kicked out. Don't want more confusion so we cleared it up completely. That was the 17th. Then on last night she says well maybe there is a way to finish the school year here if I go live in a teen help center? Like a half way house ... This gets me thinking. This might actually help her to get the tools needed to work in a place like that. I want her to grow-up successful. No I don't mean making lots of money. I mean feeling confident, useful, productive and a working piece of the puzzle and happy. Money is great but it's bad too. I want her to be able to rise to the occasion at anytime. I want her to be ever evolving. I want her to make great mistakes that she will learn from and be stronger smarter and aware. I want her to know I will love her no matter what happens. I want her to know I will always love her and take a bullet for her anytime. I will love her forever. Good luck Mikayla!
Ben and Tiffany are back! I just love those guys. We should do something together. Get the kids together too and do something fun.
1-14-10
Today is my birthday! Feels like a day older. Today thus far has been uneventful except the unexpected surprise Mikayla did for me. What a pleasant girl. I
cried when I saw the card. she put so much work into it and it shows. The X wife is building steam and has shared the posting with her boyfriend no doubt
rallying the troops. My sister called to wish me a happy birthday. A few friends have sent facebook notes to say hello and "HB" Susan offered to buy me lunch, Shanna offered to take me to dinner, and Shantel whom I liked very much confused a nice textation for a bad one and told me to "Fuck Off".
All before 11:00.
Wanted a call from my mom but she'll do it later, she did send a facebook thing so it's all good. Dad and Mommers are enjoying her birthday too somewhere near the PCT where there are no phones so I will hear from them later. I am going to call Eli from Carmel Valley. It's been 20+ years since I've talked to him so it should be a phone call. I talked to Sonja from CV the other day, also some 20+ years ago. Life is weird. Ca. is calling me to return in so many ways. Maybe the LA marathon will shed yet more influence for my return or reveal the very reasons I left. Time will tell.
1-13-10
Right before my birthday!
Jennie's latest email:
Hello, I have been concerned about the duplex and have attempted to discuss the progress towards you securing a loan for the property, without much success. I am unsure where you are at with this financial process, and think that there should be steps being made towards you owning the property outright and taking over the mortgage as agreed upon. I was unsure what options I had, so I met with an attorney today to discuss the property. If you have any updates or progress you would like to share with me please feel free to do so. Thank you and have a good day.
Jennie
I quit school to find another job to raise my income to qualify for the loan and I just told you that information only a few weeks ago and you send me an email threatening me with your actions of visiting a attorney. You’re a piece of work. I intend on notifying your family and my family of your actions.
Your words:
I have been concerned about the duplex and have attempted to discuss the progress towards you securing a loan for the property, without much success.
Last time we talked:
I have quit school to secure another job because I didn’t qualify for a loan for the amount of the duplex.
Your words:
I am unsure where you are at with this financial process, and think that there should be steps being made towards you owning the property outright and taking over the mortgage as agreed upon.
My opinion:
The value of the loan exceeds the value of the duplex according to my estimates. The loan officer wants to make sure it is a sound deal and will not loan more money than the value of the real-estate. I have told you over and over that I will do it when it is feasible and I can NOT make them loan me the money.
It is my opinion that if my name was NOT on the duplex you would have sold it or given it away as you have exemplarily shown with my other belongings and that you have a reason for being so unwilling to wait until I can resolve the issue. Why you continually threaten, or pressure me into doing something I am unable to do is really starting to change the very nature of these exchanges. My interest in the duplex is becoming less and less apealing. Your actions have already stripped me of my family, personal belongings, and ended a hopeful marriage. Yes I want you to be happy, and yes with someone else is fine. I have nothing to do with you any longer and want you to leave us alone. Please do NOT send threats to my email or my children. If you want to handle this in an ugly fashion I can NOT promise to keep all the frustrations you have thrust on me, to myself. I have tried to be understanding and purchase the duplex even though it is completely upside down financially. If you harass me further I will be compelled to bill you for half of the maintenance and upkeep regarding the duplex. Another thought is I simply walk away and make no payments at all after all you deserve far worse for what you have done to me and my family. I mean 10 years thrown away because you’re not happy and want to be with someone else? Your actions explain a lot. What about my girls you raised, who can just walk away from 10 years with two beautiful girls w/o so much as an “I miss you”? The damage you did to my daughters with your carelessness will never be fixed. I have the luxury of putting it all back together, living as a single parent, destroying what was left of my heart after you agreed to “work on it” in therapy and I haven’t even gotten started yet. Your lucky I am the man I am because many men would have beat his ass for stepping in my house with my wife, many men would have thrown your ass out in the street and burned your clothes, many men would have made it absolutely clear what you’ve done. Be very glad I have NOT lost control of my emotions. I want this done as soon as possible too. I want to get on with life and never to feel the pressure from a person like you again. You’ve screwed me and my family, you’ve destroyed all that I loved in our marriage, you’ve given away my personal life to strangers, you’ve tried to tell me how to live even after we are divorced and now you want to hassle me about doing you a favor and to hurry me up and to buy an overpriced piece of land with a dilapidated duplex that needs thousands of dollars of work? You have some nerve. Have your attorney call me if you’re so inclined. Make me mad and see how well this works out or shut the hell up and let me take care of it so we can both walk away with fewer headaches. Knowing you well enough means I know this email will only fuel your hatred further and you will become personal and choose to fight it out. You’ve shown no sign of just letting go even though you asked for the divorce so I can’t wait to see what you do next.
You pissed off X husband,
Brendon
1-11-MMX
So here it is. Beautiful place to visit that is now on my bucket list.
1-8-MMX
Just 6 days and I will be 39! I feel 40 already after I tally up all the baggage. 2 kids, 2 X-wives, 2 house and a duplex, wrecked a bunch of cars (never hurt anyone), crashed a motorcycle and my nuts, some travel, some drugs, some mysteries, some life. You know when people say, "If i could do it all over again, I'd do it the same." I am not one of those people.
I would change a few things. I would let my children know I love them more, I would have thought of them more, I would have cared my for my second wife and less for my first, I would have less of a negative impact on our planet, traveled more, kept less, given more. I know not profoundly insightful but this is where I am now.
Oh and I made a new compost barrel here's the video.
1/6/MMX
1-6-MMX
1-5-MMX
My inspiration to move myself
1-1-MMX
Wow it's over and another year in the past. Like another relationship, used car, bad job or old shirt it's just time to move on. Did you see the party in New York? I want to take my kids to see that in person next year. Training for the marathon is going along, not super, but just going. Shantel and I are no more and probably for the good. I need to be with myself for a while w/o distractions. New year ideas to come, Jan finish solar air heater for Grandma Kate, Feb construct solar water heater, compost (both barrel and worm bin) area, March run Marathon and look into classes again at RCC. April run Pear Blossom 10 mile and go for MY fastest time ever, May complete home loan for duplex, June 12 (!!!) have an alcoholic beverage. Those are just a few things I want to get done this year and many more to come. To all of you and your families, I wish you a prosperous and adventurous year. Do something challenging, test your will, be uncomfortable once a month, and think about God, family and love.
12-21-09
Can you believe it! 4 days until Christmas? Time is flying by. Good thing because my sobriety trip is getting old. Can't wait until June! Today is gorgeous and clear but a little cold. Let's play in the snow today. Going to try something new and difficult on wed. can't wait. Well I hope everyone is having a wonderful Christmas time and spending it with family or friends. You never know when they are gone so spend it with them now.
12-18-09
12-16-09
Just finished what might be the best work out ever. Not the typical heavy workout "and now I feel tired but great", no, this is far better. I feel smarter and faster and stronger. I ran a smart run today matched only by strength I didn't know I had. I ran swift and direct like a very finely tuned machine. A machine with adaptability and flexibility to adjust the tempo smartly drawing more strength and longevity out of me from places I never knew existed. Today I am empowered by my training. Today I rule in more ways then yesterday. Thank God for endorphins. (Shantel watch out)
12-7-09
Wow it's been a month! So a few things. The sequel has completely changed into someone else. She actually believes I wanted the divorce. My daughter has a vivid memory of me on my knees begging Jennie to help me fix it. I only remember saying over and over "I will do anything you want to save this marriage. Anything." I also remember staying true to her requests the best I could and then she gave away all my stuff. So I now know why she behaved so strange. She locked things up, requested keys and garage door openers, and did drive bi's because she never had any intension of ever being friendly. In fact she wanted to try to get out of the marriage very quickly with no regard to the effects on my children's lives or her own. She wanted to get single as quickly as possible. Then ironically she had another boyfreind under three months. I thought about it long and hard "How does someone go 10 years with the same person and then three months after a break-up find love?" The answer surprised me and shouldn't have. She was never really into it. Maybe in the beginning but not at all towards the end. I mean I wasn't perfect or even nice. I had my addictions and they were feuled by the marriage but I had them never the less. But what she did have and will never have again, was me. I was all hers. I wanted her so badly. I wanted to fix our marriage at all cost's. I wanted her close to me like we were in the begainning. I wanted her sexually. She was the most beautifull woman I ever knew and her kisses made me melt. I would get head rushes and loose my balance kissing that woman. I now know I had it in me to love her the way she needed, but I didn't do it in time, or she wasn't patient enough. Either way, I will most certainly give my deepest part of me away to someone who wants it again. She hurt me bad but didn't destroy me. Jennie Shave I will always love you. Jennie Gibson I wish you well.
Gosh I love running. Clarity is good too. Crystal I miss you and your family. I am gald surgery went well but you have got to take a break from w.o.w. So New Years?
Oh and take a look at this great photo I shot for Thanksgiving!
Oh and this one too. Filled with Big Sur elites.
Just added!
11-02-09
To care for anyone else enough to make their problems one's own, is ever the beginning of one's real ethical development.
10-29-09
Today I discovered just how bad my divorce has affected me. I am completely broken down with nothing left to loose. It’s unbelievable how I trusted someone so much. How hazardous it was to me and my family. Rippling through everything, I am unable to protect my children, myself or even my possessions. I will never again trust anyone that much. Nice work Jennie. You managed to get the absolute best of me hands down. You win and I concede. Strangely I still wish you well and happiness in whatever you do. I hope you never experience this or hurt anyone like this. I will be much more careful with my life and cherish it with a greater sense of importance. My heart will be stronger; my relationships will be forged with greater significance, my children will be on their own, my goals will not be my own, and they must be spiritual with intent and purpose with a core of endurance flexible enough to grow beyond the bonds of traditional unions. Non-habitual and self empowered with a thirst for education and the knowledge to use it, she will love, learn and live. We will share.
10-19-09
Yesterday my daughter dropped a bomb on me before going to bed and then I had to study
for a math quiz in the morning with that on my mind and tonight before my communications
quiz in the morning she now tells me she is moving out to her mom's. Boy so much for family
values. That would make every woman I have ever known has walked out. Must be me I guess.
Even in the middle of change, I am still loosing those near me who are important to me.
God is just putting me in a better place to choose Him. I am full of pain, and hurt.
I will keep going and put my chin up.
I will NOT do the same as I have done,
I will do things differently.
10-15-09
Your call today was just what I needed. I like a pat on the back like anyone else
might but yours was well placed. I find confidence within but your assurance was helpful.
I like that you listen well and are attentive when we speak together.
Hearing you offer your guidance gives me some to think about. I remember our walk
on the beach. Not the one when you stole flip flops, but the other walk, the other beach.
You were my best friend at that moment. Just like today.
10-14-09
Any person who embraces a new paradigm, at an early stage,
must often do so
in defiance of the evidence provided by the
problem solving.
Long Beach Marathon 3 hours 38 minutes About 20 minutes faster than his last time!
That's not all Omar's hair - it's a thingmabob to hold his hair back from
his face while he's running :o) Tony is one week shy of 6 months old now!
10-11-09
Today I found my life scattered like trash by someone I once loved.
Today I was hurt, broken, fragile and small.
It felt like hate and I felt like a victim.
My pain gave way to anger, my anger gave way to growth.
I will never know why she did the things she did.
I will one day know myself, and will one day love again.
Goodbyes are tough, I've had enough, growth is rough.
10-09-09
She is just that. Still. Simple. Pretty.
If only I could have recognized these things before.
I want her to be happy.
Seperate from me.
10-6-09
Next big adventure: The L.A. Marathon!
10-6-09
Finished the Portland Marathon in 4:59:49! Crazy time for no training. By far my worst time ever. Also my best time ever with NO training. Most I ran was 2 training runs of 11 miles each about 3 weeks before the race. So Now things change a little for me and I will rest for a week and start again for Vegas. Then L.A. in March.
9-30-09
9-30-09
Eventually, if there isn’t deep integrity and fundamental character strength,
the challenges of life will cause true intentions to rise to the surface
and human relationship failure will replace short-term success.
9-28-09
It's just after midnight on the first day of fall term. Class starts at 9 am and I am still wide awake.
Also a small schedule problem has appeared with regards to the Portland Marathon.
The newest developement: Mikayla's window has been bolted shut.
(long story I will tell another time)
9-24-09
Just got into another disagreement with my daughter. Kids today have no phone etiquette. It should be tought in class at high school.
J'aime mes amis français qui sont restés avec moi. Merci Pierre et Stéphanie Tricoire Gouret.
9-23-09
I am stronger than I originally considered. The time is now to fill those gaps left by years of neglect.
9-21-09
Getting ready for school again. It's exciting. Work, school, kids, and trainning for portland marathon leaves little time for anything else.
9-20-09
Todays goal was to get through it:Success
Additional things, knowing now that it wasn't all me feels better. Hurting for months because I couldn't
figure it out, was natural.
Knowing you were with him before the marriage was over explains so much.
Be well Jennie and I wish you good luck.
9-19-09
Learning to be a man.
9-17-09
Currently recalibrating my character
Realizing now I wasn't ready to be a husband either time.